tags; can't get back up

"All I've ever done was try"

But I clearly did not even attempt.

Regurgitation, am I stupid or plain stupid or just so stupid?

Seriously kristyn, another disappointment.

It's not about yourself anymore,

it's about your tutor.

I bet he's freakin' disappointed in me.

My parents, though they didn't express any disappointment, will not be satisfied either.

Well, just a deduction. And I don't see why it's invalid.

5% is a great deal, for phy.

FREAK

ok mummy said to work harder for the remaining paper.

But how hard is enough? ):

Daddy said don't dwell on it. Move on and look on the bright side. He said that in a very enthu way <333

Well, that sorta lifted me a lil' ((:

comfort and encouragement from my parents.

they're awesome and that really helped.

I'm glad ((:

I WILL FREAKING WORK HARDER, HARDEST AND I'LL MAKE SURE MY PHYSICS PAPER WILL BE ONE OF THE TOP 10 SCRIPTS. I BET YOU I'LL MAKE THAT HAPPEN (to the best of my ability)

tags; go and die kristyn. It'll be a better day tmr, & be nicer to jy <33

Well, it's all about trust.
Believing others with an unguarded heart?

I really felt love and warmth there, then.
But the next period, it felt distant.

How then, am I able to place my faith in other peeps?
W/o reservations.

Heck that.

Just don't kao bei me.

What is kao bei in the first place??
I have no idea.
Just feels appropriate using it ((:

Tags; I can't stop thinking ''I hate''

wokay it has been a week!

technically more than a week.

A quick update before I turn to the class tee.

You won't be interested in my sch life so we shall skip that.
Ah yes, I almost caused myself undue worry.
The interview results aren't out yet.. Is it because I got rejected? (awww...)
Thankfully, I couldn't wait and came online to check.
Hee, turns out that the interviews are still ongoing. (phewss)
I really want this ):

s-u-m-m-i-t!!!!!

Ah well, Let's hope for the best. Shall pray!
(relief from faith )

Aside from that, I shall stop being real anal abt the milk carton xD
Yes I just got enlightened o_o
Refrain from imposing expectations of myself onto others.
Unfairness.

Tags; rose apples calms the evil weather

If only stress burns calories, I would have been a size 0

xD

A pity.

Well I guess it's time to let go. (phews x_x)

By accepting your inadequacies, it's really all about trying your best.

That is what matters.

This is something that calls for true understanding.

Believe that whether you study your guts out or not will ultimately yield the same outcome

((:!

tags; SO DON'T STUDY

G-R-O-W

verb (used without object)
to increase by natural development, as any living organism or part by assimilation of nutriment; increase in size or substance.

tags; hating it

I never feel comfortable using the word 'hate' in any of its form...

ah well

kristyn is an optimistic girl

yay

some retail therapy was what I needed

it feels good,

well at least better
(:

i shall use TRIM instead of that damned word 'cut'

what's next is going to be very random, but..

for once,

i hate you

tags; rmb girl r-e-m-e-m-b-e-r

you are like the baby of our family

lucky boy

you have the four of us to dote on you, so you should jolly well cherish our TLC (tender loving care)

((:

tags; we all know we love you

everything seems so deliberate

deliberately painful

yet I still chose to be part of your plan,

constantly reminding myself:

it is not so bad after all

How I wish it would be easier to let go of the negatives, and embrace the positives

Well, I am trying =DD

People love happy people
Friends love happy friends

tags; happy kristyn ((:!

I broke my goddamn tooth again

fish + 鸡蛋糕!!!!!

Why is my freaking tooth so vulnerably brittle?!

Ok, and I wanted to surprise my daddy today..

"papa, I didn't get 100 for my chem test"...........

Failed plan.

And that tooth just had to break when I was mixing the dough!

Ok, I am really burning -_-

It was like a very difficult decision to make: to stop baking or not to
Nvm, it was just so hard.
But I still continued.
Waha, put my skills to the test xD
I should think the product came out unexpectedly fine ((:

Yay happy birthday to you DY! We scored the exact same marks for chem --> on a side note xD

tags; stupid Daim, stupid kristyn

bingeing on work, then bingeing on pleasure

tags; more to come