#Now that my dear friend has resolved her problems, I bet she's feeling much better and of course, relieved (:

#Everything has been cleared up. I don't like things to drag, especially when these things are the things which appear so uncertain.

#You can never say for sure how your day will end. Hyper-ness during the day may not let your joy live through the night. You just need that very trigger to ruin your entire day. Catalyst? Brothers. Well.. I'll never know till the very last second of my 31st Jan 'o9.

#I should really stop relying on others & of course food for anymore comfort.
Time to wake up and be more independent girl! But I really want a pat on the head. Let's make that 'wanted' instead.

Tags; You may be that very trigger for the hyper/emo mode

An audience motivates creation

That was why dear blog was sooo inactive for one period, right dear blog?
Ah wells.. Shall continue some other day. Gtg shower x_x

Tags; Was splashed with conc. sulphuric acid the whole evening

Being selfishly selfless

that was what she taught me - the hard way.
Well of course there's also the influence of TV shows -_-
Babe, maybe this is the work of impulse
Instead of jumping straight into it, why not just wait?
Be a patient girl (: (LIKE ME!! xD)

And yes, even JY agreed that:

feelings do fade

r/s do deteriorate

bonds do weaken

all over time o_o

Heck that. I met ISB today!!!!!
Like my love my love my love my love my love to infinity! xD
I ran towards the tennis court in HCI, and I saw ISB running towards me! Hah like an auntie =x with her hair all tied back.
And I must have appeared super nerdy (in my dear specs) in my jacket and backpack running towards her too xD
Hah

Tags; happy happy happy day. kristyn is a happy girl (:

Babe, so what if you're honest & true to yourself?


Have you ever thought that this might not be the best you want for him? Yourself included.


While deception on your part may evoke guilt,

and as much as it feels terribly awful to deceive yourself,

have you contemplated that this may actually be a better option?


It is inherent for you to think like a consequentialist

and you have to accept this alright..?

Alongside the belief that whatever that is meant to be will be,

given any amount of time (:


Tags; she's not a risk taker

... Luckily, while under all this duress, your love life is moving ahead swimmingly. You have found someone (or he or she has discovered you) on whom you can depend to defend and protect you without bossing or tyrannizing. Hang on to this person. You need security in order to carry on your actively inventive existence.

The last 3 words crack me up. LoL.

#Don't expect me to believe this piece of analysis though (:

although the earlier part about the year of the Ox (it's going to be real tough & this year is all about getting straight As) is true x_x

Tags; Your sign is Goat

cont...

Here's my DIDI! Waha, my classmate laughs at me for calling him didi because bro's so big alr. But still!

Oh & He grew taller o_o But once I'm on my heels, he doesn't feel as tall. Whee.

Mommy & I!!!! Mom looks so girlish here xD And she's gonna put this pic up on her facebk. Lol. We were so in pink and white today o_o

And of course KNEO! I like this picture because... It has err..a fairly good contrast? I don't know which term to use but the sun loves me *glows*

Tags; Photo spam

Yeah! PIcturesSs. Here's my bro and my nephew (left). We're actually playing some card game - something like taboo and pictionary combined. But this time, we guess stuff like: who's the princess who ate the poisoned apple? Ah well, I had to entertain them and forgo blackjack ):

But they're always more impt. Hee.

Terry & Sandie (They're just like my di & I - quarrel a lot when we were younger. Actually, we still do now =x)

Their BABY BROTHER! Danny (:

Nard requests that I take a picture of him all dressed up.

我不喜欢无规矩的进展

It pisses me off. Hah.

On another note, I wake up at random timings FC (:

Oh and I'm still figuring out where on earth did I place my cold wear
&
what 成语s to use later to wish the elders

Tags; random

This dream;

I freaked out, honestly.
&
I felt very uncomfortable then.

But when it did occur in reality, it wasn't like what I had felt.. but I wasn't too pleased. Not with myself.

It should not be this way, no.

So let's take one step at a time & see if it'll gradually disintegrate.
Do I really wish for this dream to realise?
Tags; That dream

Came across a rather interesting article earlier (The Sunday times)

While the guys go mostly for appearance in the females,

Ladies opt for the social status of the opposite gender instead.

(Here, econs may be a lil' related - CBA or cost-benefit analysis)

As mentioned, males link beauty to women's fertility & hence child-bearing.

Whereas for the girls, social status reflects her potential partner's ability to support the family in the future.

*On a side note, guys also look out for girls who are kind and caring.

I guess that may be true to a certain extent?

Tags; t3h love doctor

Yes, today has been rather eventful.

And I've realised and confirmed something:
I spend my money as soon as I draw it out of the machine.

Darn, I drew out 2o bucks yesterday..And what happened?
Spent some on food, but that's ok.
Today, I bought sweets (x2) and an uber cute turtle. Gosh I just couldn't resist xD
Yeah, that's where my $$ goes & I shouldn't complain.

It's rare that money can actually buy that inch of happiness, so I shall be thankful (:

And yes, speaking of my childhood.
It feels good (& silly) to reminisce about the past, especially the first few years of my life at PITPIT ROAD! damn cute lah the road name xD

Those were the days where coussie and I were still really close.

Those were the times my aunt and coussies came over for dinner.
&
Those were the years when my ah ma fed me and patted me to sleep.

And I'm not sure if I've mentioned this before;

I literally hid in the fridge when I was about 5 or 6 years

It's super funny.
But yeah, predictably, I still rmb myself arranging the things in the fridge to make way for my little (or not so little) frame then. Then I closed myself in - why? I was snacking on something, I can't rmb what exactly. But it's definitely either chocolate or candy. Hah. My maid got sooooo worried when she couldn't find me. But in the end, I think she was the one who interrupted my glut. Lol. I'm bad at hide & seek.

Tags; Childhood

woodlands damn happening seh

Man found dead and a shop was robbed

Ok, enough of depressing news.

For the past week, I think my system is getting adapted to 6hrs of sleep and that isn't very nice
because
I found myself automatically awake after 4+ hrs of sleep today &
I pray it doesn't get worse.
Luckily there's CNY, so from today onwards, I shall try to sleep at my usual sch bedtime - 2200

(Aihs, 22 is such a lovely number)

But yeah, I can't believe I used to switch my brain off at ten! Remarkable, but
I AM GETTING INFLUENCED BY PEOPLE WHO SLEEP LATE,
hence the shorter hrs of rest.

Oh, HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR EVERYONE (:

Tags; languor

This week has been hectic

New stuff, a lot of them

well, I've just completed the J1 list and I am thankful I stayed up to complete it. Or rather, I don't feel sleepy (why?) Neither do I feel like sleeping. Maybe because I had a quality 5 min nap on the cab just now. Gosh, cab rides are really horrid.

as usual, after tuition, I went to mom's office. Everyone was damn hardcore there, chionging their budget and what-nots. Well, of course I'm not exempted from that kind of hardcore-ness.
My mom passed me her DS, I chose my GP articles instead. And well, I completed the rest of it after I reached home.

Too little sleep and JY is already feeling my lethargy
Just because I'm not as hyper as I used to be in sch?
Well, she's really the most fantastic friend (minus the blur-ness =p)
Hah, LOVE HER!!

What else?

1)Need to go to people's park to get some materials (ASAP x_x)
2)Research and physics tutorial
&
3)SUN TAN!!

Yeah, that's basically it.

#Mom & I watched the starry starry sky last night (:
#I hope I don't wake up with puffy eyes tmr, cheers.

Tags; school

Yes!

I've sent out the name list and I don't have to do the research on tie pins anymore o_o

Why?

Because, I've been inspired!
Let's see if the class doesn't mind using a real tie pin. I think it's cool. But.. We'll see tmr.
Whee

Tags; tie pin II

Lol, came across this at Bev's blog.

I quote:

"I can't stand guys soometimes, seriously. Okay not all of them... but MOST. All they think abt is games & girls. Wtf please put your brains to some use okay , v frustrating."

Joke of the day man, Hah.
And yeah, I think wht she says is true =x

My day didn't pass by as hectic as I had initially drafted it out to be. In the end, I'm here now.
Not doing research, not doing the excel sheet for photog and def..oh right. Now I rmb what I have to do. So I guess my day hasn't ended yet.

I'm supposed to be doing a lil' research yet here I am, blogging.
Bad girl.

Tags; tie pin

It was really pointless to have struggled inside,

Were those reasons or typical excuses?

If I had really wanted to offer my seat up to her, I would have done so.

& without thinking about wht the auntie right in front of me would do, or how much a commotion I could (potentially) have caused.

Another episode of this may really heighten my phobia for seating myself on the train or anymore 969s.

Now this is something I really abhor, but well, I guess if this world were to be without selfish people like me, it would be a boring place, no? xD

Tags; consequentialist

I wonder how often do I find myself so selfish..

But honestly, despite Isb saying 'no' to it, I still went ahead;

because

It's almost impossible for me not to do what I want to do, even if it means potentially upsetting the other party involved - selfish me.

Yes I am that bad (:

well, how should i put it now?
My monday night went really well & I don't wanna sleep.
I just wanna talk forever

I love you so very much, my friend

I've emo-ed enough (for once I admit that wasn't reflection)

So it's EIGHT HUNDRED for 2 weeks

Tags; gal

Even the deepest wound heals

Not to mention this is merely superficial
But the scar remains
Although I really think it would go away soon

Hmm, maybe that birthmark thingy on my thigh isn't a birthmark afterall.
It could have been a really bad scald, like this stubborn one on my hand - t3h scar - & they look similar.
C'mon loh, the scar is neither here nor there.
Should either have remained invisible to the naked eye or real huge so it captures attention;
lol

I love scars because they are manly xD

o_o

Oh no,
Do I really wish to become a guy??

Nah, scars are beautiful in that they're able to reveal a lot (:

Tags; literal & figurative

To achieve greater things, sacrifices are inevitable.

And through what you sacrifice, you should be able to see how important you consider the things involved. Something like prioritising, isn't it?

& that's something new to me.

Tags; Greater things (:

Everything comes with a price

I'm not afraid anymore.

Not disgusted anymore.
Maybe because the atmosphere has changed.

& so

I'm very very happy, for you.
An old old friend.

I hope things stay this way because I feel warmth from the both of you.
Incredible, because a blog hop chased the bad mood away.
Thank you & stay happy (:

I hereby declare, it's another page filled and filed deeply away.

Tags; enlightened aka another point added to my level of maturity =p

I miss them

TODAY WAS T3H FUN-NEST DAY

Well, maybe since school reopened on monday =D
Because, we went to collect pineapple tarts today!!!!
My mum ordered 5 boxes!!!!
And while waiting for my mom and aunt, daddy and I were in the car, and I was telling him more abt me. Like how much I dislike vectors..among others. We had a great time today despite the really short period of abt less than 5 mins??
And we're going to town early in the morning tmr! Leaving home at o945 - that's wht Dad suggested. Yeah! More family time together. Lovessss
If I have to pretend, I will.
Tags; family, no lies

I'm finally home but I still haven't showered.

Well, just got cut off talking to my mom on the phone. Poor reception, which is good. So we'll settle things when she's back. I don't forsee a disaster though (: but this often means otherwise in reality.

Well I'm just relieved I completed my vectors assignment before heading out at 7 (THREE CHEERS!)

Oh, and I lied again, as usual, because you people didn't believe me when I said what I said the first time.
Well, I guess lies are meant to be more convincing (:

Now that I'm home, the 'guilt' thingy has worn off, for good. I feel lighter!
Oh, speaking of lighter..
I took my hgt and wght today. Waha, managed to 'cheat' my way through the height part... =x
Although there really isn't much of a diff.
The weight part was ok, think I lost 2kg from last year. Which is good, but still need to lose more (I doubt girls ever stop dieting).

I have faith in going to sch; tht it will help me achieve this goal ((:

Nothing much anymore, oh!
And I feel accomplished today!
I went out with the 3 leos who had wanted to meet me some time or another.

Good job gal!

ran 1.6km today and didn't take height and weight

tags; PE

o357 & I shouted:

WHAT THE HELL!

Tags; myself to blame

No point feeling bad over spilled milk
so
I shall think deeper the next time I want to speak my mind

Tags; myself to blame

Yeah Bev's right:

Do not underestimate the power of small actions, like nodding your way through tutorials or maybe even a simple smile (:

Updates:

Well, today I had a fantastic time through chem and econs, because the pace went really fast for the former.
Chem - new teacher, he aint that bad I guess.
Econs - I finally learned more about exchange rates. Like whees.. confusing, but once you get it, you'll feel super satisfied xD

And we bridged one round in class today just bfore chem tutorial =x That was something lighthearted alright (:

Ok and Zi yao was completely obssessed with 'Filbert'. He give him that name, which I thought was very apt for a dark brown overdue Xmas present. Hah. But it was sweet of BJ to give me another toy.

Gosh.. but frankly, am I such a 'toy' person? EEK.

I woke up yesterday and today feeling awfully emo & I don't know why
Will tmr be the same?

Tags; she's a happy girl (:

OH MY GOD




Tags; Results

I have to recognise that I am wrong
&
sometimes all it takes is to accept the fact that i really am

Oh and I flipped through the fairprice brochure.
The mixer's going at 3o bucks! (not moved)
And I really want a new phone for myhouse.
I love - myhouse (:

Saw the wooden one, but then I looked up to the console. It was black, with lil' bits of white and silver (PS3's black, modemn's black, tv's black, dvd player's black - how dull) so I guess the wooden phone's out. Shall hunt for a white/silver one.

How about a hot pink one to stand out?

t3h final product (:


Today started off rough.


#1: the fishmonger's son wasn't there today to descale those fishes. This meant an (auto) extended waiting time for all the aunties who have yet to collect their fishies ): And my mom was one of them. This lengthened our parking time and made my mum rush for her morning party at Taka >_>


#2: The question ''You don't need a long time to change right?'' from my mom meant I was (auto) attending the party with her at 083o. I didn't agree to it mom, neither did I say n-o. And so I was dragged to the party - 1/2 my soul left at home.


#3: I was hungry ok! Hence, the grouchy and very grumpy kristyn. There was starbucks coffee and tea for the refreshments, and I quote ''umm... biscuits from Marks & Spencer''.. Er ok. So that didn't appeal to me (I was sick of sweet stuff). And so, my hunger pangs came and went. Till the sushi from Tangs basement brightened me up. Yumm <3


#4: The Ntuc at bukit timah was boring... My mom forgot to take the bag with her sesame oil in it. And I was supposed to get it back for her. Gosh.. I was a lil' pissed coz the Ntuc was boring enough. So those few dosages of sushi didn't help prolong that bit of satisfaction I felt from the first bite of tuna sushi (I don't eat tuna, but I just felt like trying that coz it seemed really harmless). But the sushi was really nice (:


Ahhss...So then when I got to chong pang, it was already one plus. Had soto ayam while my dad waited 'patiently' for his mee pok. The mee pok there is famous. Well, I was alright by then I guess. Then it was the baking session - the mother-daughter bonding time. AH HA... -_- It was ok I guess. I had to tell myself not to be stubborn and listen to my mom. So I floured the surface for rolling the dough, instead of coating the dough with flour (I'm used to doing this).


Then it was swensens for dinner. 40 bucks dining voucher, of course must spend! My daddy said just go there for the ice cream & I agree with him. The both of us don't fancy food from Swensens. But the fish & chips were really nice. And then, we had family bonding time! Qlty man, we each talked abt things tht were happening the next few weeks.. then from our bro's O lvl results and jc/poly/ite choices, to bros' girlfriends and of course, I could not be left out. So I revealed what I was supposed to. hahs. And daddy was saying how next week would be a lot of lunches and dinners, and mom's would be filled with budget and all the accountant-cy stuff. Me? Going back to school duh. Nothing much to say right? It was good, but the waiting time for our earthquake exceeded tht for the main courses by 4 times??! My dad was really pek chek, so was I. Hee.



And then, I pulled off my old stunt. Tying the cherry stalk into a knot. I estimate I did that in under 1.5 mins?

I told myself: p-e-r-s-e-v-e-r-e and I did it (:

Yay

And then back home, while I was trying to upload the pictures onto blogger (I gave up and posted one in the end), my elder bro msn-ed my lil' bro and myself: Oie come out and eat and drink something.

Well I guess being at home doesn't mean we don't rely on technology to communicate.

elder bro: In the living room with com

younger bro: In his room with laptop

Me: in my room with laptop

Ok, so I didn't get scammed by my elder bro to go out to eat (:

Or did I? By the time I was out, there was nothing.. Hmm..

Most times, actions speak louder than words.

Yet to me, in other aspects, words pwn the actions.

So I guess saying 'I love you mummy' far exceeds the (potential) blithe she would experience if I were to get her a diamond ring eh? Ah ha!... Equals to I can save on my 300 plus bucks (:

Is it the same for you? Or do you think your actions are a window to your thoughts?

Like what Ms Ho says: Speak your mind or your mind will be spoken
That is exactly what I'm doing now (:

Cheers

I don't even wish for the past few days/weeks to exist as memories.
I am reflecting, not emo-ing. Understood?

Ok, now that the above is stated, I can move on & reflect somemore.

It really is a great feeling to be able to learn something from someone more chilidish, immature, younger and kiddish (this applies to a few pple in my life).

#I am very confused.

Whenever I trust someone, I'll have to go back into my lil' hole and rethink it. I guess thinking twice about believing someone is a good thing? Although I must admit, I don't read too deeply into what people say - i'm superficial - hence I take some time to see s-a-r-c-a-s-m. That's bad for me, but good for the other party.

Oh & uh, frankly speaking, I screwed my phone up; aka the connection to my social circle has been temporarily shut till I decide to do something about it.

See you

''Next week start school already, don't keep going out''

Yet on the other hand, I'm encouraged to spend the last few days of my last week of holidays as best as I could.

Why is there so much contradiction in life?

Going out? Let me define it for you.

From my mom's dictionary, it should read: Anything later than dinner time aka around 19oo = going out
From Dad's dictionary, it should be: Anything after 2200 = going out
From my dictionary, it IS: Meeting any friend = going out.

That's why most of the time, I conduct my research in supermarkets alone aka NOT GOING OUT. As long as I'm back before my daddy is home, I'll be safe AND happy (:

I'm very attached, to my home.

sometimes ''jie jie'' is all i need to brighten up my day

tht's why i hope ''kor kor'' will brighten up his day too

these lil' actions can really go a very long way (:

i really can't tell who's good or bad anymore

i've become more sceptical

i've began to look beyond many things

so have i lost or gained some sanity?
i don't know who to believe

Both bros went out.. So w-h-y am I still at h-o-m-e?
Nothing more
This house is only a home at night, or maybe not?
Nothing more
Well, just returned from a walk at Sun plaza. Got myself another bargain.
This super duper uber c-u-t-e tee. The deal? Under 5 bucks. Really takes patience to find something you like. Waha.
Nothing more
Life feels so stale here .

i need to get away from home

this is m-e today (:

Had a great time with my OG mates! Went to Icekimo for ice cream - not a bad place ((:

Back with a cup of sprite at home. I ask myself: why?
It's rare for me to pour myself a cup of soft drink at home, very o_o
Just had the urge to. Lol.
Soft drinks - comfort food to ease confusion. tsk.

I guess it kinda took effect. Not bad (:

Ok, so this trip wasn't really the best family outing.

Day1;

**Realised that I had only mid-thigh bottoms in my bag. I must have msn-ed till I lost that bit of rationality.
*Chionged Vectors (not pleasant at all)

Day2;

*****That streak of rebellion somehow set in and turned me into a complete ass (TSK)
****VERY temperamental, completely indifferent and SO not very nice
***Wondered how my bro can be apthetic to my mom's ''WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?'' (I was very hurt)
**One day of defiance is enough (it lasted the entire day)
*Regret: Did not savour the cheesecake I had craved for

Day3;

***Back to the hyper + talkative me (in front of my family)
**Realised that red ixoras looked ugly in the bushes ie. the average red doesn't match the average green [lime green would have been perfect (:]
*The bugis crowd ruined that - how unlikable

ok, so now I feel that the previous post is kinda crappy.

my bro said my baking improved, even though it always tasted the same. Clearly, he doesn't really care. But just that, and my soul and spirits were lifted instantaneously. lovess

Oh, I asked my dad why the humps were bigger. My bro said to stop cars from speeding.
Doesn't that generally apply for all humps? -_- Well, I thought it could be because there are a lot of lorries or trucks in tht area. Big humps for big vehicles. Makes sense? relativity is something i've not learnt.

Aside from that...

Would you rather look or wait?

i.e. look for something or wait for something, something that doesn't belong to you but you wish you could possess.

I would of course... wait with a capital W. I believe what I've waited for has come.
But I'm greedy, I want more. I'm still waiting..for that Miss Right. I'm waiting for ...
That tee I've always wanted - at a more affordable price of course (i'm waiting) plus more (:

Ok I baked and it isn't fantastic.
Was in a rush and overheard my mom telling my aunt how the things i'm baking are always for my friends, not family. But c'mon, I'm upset.

No one at home really eats the stuff I bake anyway. Those biscuits are better off with friends, rather than the dustbin. But still, I throw them away because I find that they're kinda like 'hated' by the family. No one likes 'em. & reality hits - ouch.

Oh..now i rmb what I wanted to blog about.. in the previous posts but somehow never seemed to rmb to add it in.

EAST COAST PARK ROADS HAVE BIGGER-THAN-NORMAL HUMPS.
why? I'll think about it...

Yeah finally got this picture up. Now I don't feel as guilty. Will be baking later again.. for my dearssss in KL. Leaving tmr morning, hopefully this mini getaway will help prepare me for this year.. another 'chiong-AH' year. Must work doubly triply hard for econs and gp.. but how motivated can you get when all the effort invested goes to producing a C?

Oh, and I've kinda realised that sometimes, life for some people is like a perpetual cycle. Stage one, 2, three then 4. it's like shedding your skin... and the outcome never changes. I really wonder why people allow themselves to be stuck in such a cycle.. Want to know what I would do?

Anything but repeat the same fruitless attempt at life (:

i'm unlocked!

this is me & i've been revealing myself - boring?


Should blogs really just be about narrating your every day life?


I personally do not like it that way, i find it revealing.
Honestly, I don't find it revealing, just not the most exciting thing for viewers......


if only 'i love you' meant nothing too deep;
i would have spammed it on them

Away for a while and Mr. computer shows me the screen saver...

Sms-ed for a while before realising that I can't bring myself to accomplish what I had set out.
To post that picture taken a few days back. Been wanting to do that like..ages ago. But i've been a real lazy girl too. Why?

MY CAMERA'S WITH MY BRO... tht's why.. And I forgot.
i forgot it twice.. the sd card's inside -_-

And i have to go wash up now.. Bro went into mummy's room )):
Well, hope he didn't wake my parents up.

My parents are everything.

colour my 2oo9

wow

Let me spam blogger since I'm very awake now ( I rarely yearn for my bed after 2am)

I'm sick

Like the disgusted way, yes I am

And yes, I still love my brother a lot.

Happy New Year people!

Well, this year didn't start out as great as I thought it would (Er actually.. it was supposed to be just another day for me - maybe not; watching the last 5th epi of little nyonya isn't just another ordinary day o_o) but it did provide me with yet a different experience - an absolutely different way of spending new year's eve. Spending the 'whole year' finding a carpark lot really isn't the best way to countdown.

besides.. how do you expect me to feel happy/excited ushering in 2oo9 when my parents are left at home (with all their children spending the first few seconds of their new year outside with friends) ?

SADDENED

But still.. I'm really impressed by how big cat treasures the rox bond. This is something I'm learning. IJ friends - no such thing. RJ friends - lagi jialat. That's why I feel blessed now, on the third hour and 14th minute of 2009 (:

As for the gathering, I've come to realise that red is such a CHIO colour. Lol.. Thanks a million times to Yujie for ferrying me around (*feels fortunate and filled with utmost gratitude*) And of course, not to mention I didn't complete my dare and uh.. a big SORRY if anyone got a hard time 'cause of me.

Other than that, ***THANKS lil bro, you've been sweet to your sis (: Love you!