FACED WITH A MORAL DILEMMA NOW.
DAMN LAH.
I SHOULD HAVE BEEN MORE CAREFUL.
GOSH. THINGS TODAY DIDN'T GO WELL. NOT AT ALL.
SCREW THAT @#@!#~!#$# PERSON.
Isb is right. Dao him. really an A double S. ughhhh!!!
Heck him!!!! How I wish i could.
The way it came to me; i could really just feel he meant i was completely hopeless. screw my ROS.
I have a lot inside me to deal with right now.

Haven't seen my mum for 3.5 days alr. Only heard her voice yesterday.
Pathetic me.
Have been mugging. Only form of recrea.
I'm always alone at home. WHY??!
And now I have to find lil' bro coz he's MIA-ing after his XXXXXXX surgery.

Amen and bye bye.

God made us fall so we could learn to stand up.

Let's wait till I can sing again.

Why does such a happy day have to end up so miserable?
God doesn't like kristyn to be happy till the end.
He brought her up to the 18th floor and made her fall.
She fell, sank deep.
Went beneath the ground.
It was hard, concrete. Slammed.
She's incoherent now.
That wave of misery and undue guilt had slapped her real hard.
(不知者无罪) doesn't work for her.
What's done has been condemned. Denigrated. Vilified.
Coming home and being slapped with (don't you go out anymore) didn't help. Not at all.
But does she care? No.. not really.
Coz she doesn't wanna go for class outings no more. Though she's aware her classmates love her.
She's ashamed. Utterly.
Ashamed of being unaware, of being too insensitive. Just for that minute.
Where was her observant being at that time?
It was in that machine.
That machine - a curse.

Luckily I have bella to rant at. To just get it off my chest. Even if it means for a while. I love you bellaaa. Thank you. Very much.

快乐可以和你分享。痛苦由自己承受就足够。
No, i'm not gonna share it. Not with you.. Once again. I'm sorry for being so selfish. Even though friends are supposed to be there for one another. Good and bad times. The latter just doens't work for me.
If only (sorry) would help.
It doesn.t

It already feels empty enough just thinking about how stress-free I would be, while others feel the pressure weighing them down.

After considering all the factors and implications,
I really hope this decision is a wise one.

God bless those taking the GP CT tomorrow.
Really.

I need you right now.


















































































HUAN CHIN!!! DU YAO!! FOO LAI!!
PRO PPLE!! I NEED YALL!!

GG x_x
How I wish I'm able to just solve all those phy questions all by myself.
It really just destroyed my mood for the entire day, esp since i started doing them in the morning. like a good whole 2.5 hrs at the very least on phy. with 1+ hr on those 3 qns alone, which duh. I eventually didn't manage to solve.
Was rude to mummy. I apologize.
Well well. Something happy though.
My tooth's mended!.. like woah..
i guess that's a blessing.

A 'thank you' alone aint enough.
It's supposed to be GROUP work.
It really is absurb to say or even think that work is delegated according to how much free time the member has.
Ok. That didn't occur.
BUT there's really insignificant difference b/w volunteering to help you do your job (because you do substandard work or rather.. plagarism) and 'work delegation'. because you do such a lousy job, someone HAS to intervene, no??!
OR the average mark per member would just continue it's roll down the slope. As if the gradient aint steep enough.
Enough of being nice, it's time to get things..SERIOUS BUSINESS into your head, mate.
I really wanna just remain indifferent and expect much less from you.
Be glad i'm still EXPECTING something from ya.
Cheero.

The hectic week just passed. damn my poor mental strength. but well.
phy is really screwed now. as if i didn't study enough. well.. lil' exposure to diff genres of qns and freakin' weak concepts.
now for chem.. Mr lee says can finish in 1o mins. i can, ya know.
If i'm as pro as him. -_-
All alone at home now. Bros went out. Parents coming back later.
The past 2 days were ok at home. Actually..i reached home only after nine for both days.
So.. didn't feel tht bad being with the 2 of them at home. coz i was hardly there.
family didn't feel like family.
many many many things happened the past 4 days..like..those events still linger around.
thought trail back to the past.
very very stressed. like..tests and gp CT. freak.. i've not read/touched the newsp for 5 days!! like wth.. i could only gain access to the rest of the world via mobtv. -_-...
i'll read the papers after i return from sch..which would be around 10. well well. then sleep. then the next day aka sunday PW in sch at 7.3o!!!
i have to wake up at err.. 6.30. wow...
ok. shan't let the stress get to me anymore!!
YAY.
stress prevents the neurons from transmitting impulses.
SHoooooo.
LET'S MAINTAIN A MEGA HIGH LEVEL OF OPTIMISM (MHLO) FOR THE REST OF UH..THE WEEK. = D . . . MHLO is directly proportional to MHLExhaustion.

BYE BYEEE.

traumatised.

WHAT'S UP WITH FOOD AND ME LATELY?!?!?!?!?!?!
DAMN LAH.

started with cup noodles which were half uncooked??! water at 6o deg is useless.
next was that mint candy which chewed part of my tooth out.
then came that freaking apple which was rotten on the inside, + I still unknowingly chewed on it w/o realising it until that bitterness penetrated my tastebuds.
ok. no more swearing.

I ONLY TRUST WATER NOW. NOTHING BUT CHILLED TAP WATER.

AMEN.