Daddy's adorable!



Bro2 looking rugged



PEACE to the camera lady



Bro1's failed attempt at doing his err... nard-move



I just had to post this spastic photo of bro2; coussie's in the bg! Gosh I love him so!!


Never knew heaven's tears could feel so heavy and cold

the barrier feels more tangible


so what? Give up?

I don't intend to. Neither do I intend to advance. So let's just play the waiting game.
All over again.

Here are the beaten the egg whites! Glossy huh! But I think they were overbeaten. Yesterday's disaster shall not be revealed.







These are pics of my "successful" (Ok, to me, tht's good enough) Angel Food Cake! Or Angel cake for short. I'll perfect them, won't I? Hah, I was using leftover egg whites! So, I suppose, still in the experimental stage.

I'll perfect my skills for Lin. Only for you~~ Lol. She drew me a cute flower! Yes, after I drew her one. She hasn't drawn before xD online msn*




I am tough. Sometimes I'm unreasonable. I have to catch myself every once in a while.
George Steinbrenner

Well, for me. I have to catch myself almost all the time xD

I really detest this smell!
Oh & I do hope I rmb to keep my neos safe xD
Mom's not feeling well ): Er, like just before we leave town. Umm,...really not a good time.
Well, tmr should be quite packed. Meeting mom to do don't know wht, accompany her to the doc, need to bake with the leftover cream, like soon! + shopping with von in the evening! & I haven't packed my luggage @_@ Hah..

I wanna run now T_T I feel unhealthy. Seoul was a bad choice, I'm supposed to abstain from heaty stuff; apparently I forgot. But I don't think this will worsen my jaw discomfort right? Hee, let's stay optimistic!

Bro's got a new phone and he doesn't like it. Well, sorry lil' one but I hate changing phones, so I guess no trading with me :P But I'm nice and have offered to give you extra allowance for every month I work! So you'd better study hard, date hard and play even harder. Oh of course, must rmb to love ur sis the hardest!

Err..I still stink, damn..

Yes I'm up pretty early today. 0702; I love the number.
Flunk it?
Gosh I should really stop saying things I do not mean :x

Lol. It's definitely not me to flunk anything. That is really letting myself down. It's giving up on myself - this is the worst which could happen. Tsk tsk.

God, why would I surrender without even putting up a fight? At least attempt, see what happens thereafter, then torture yourself with the decision-making. Ah, this is a much better plan..

Girl, you've promised to try your best so just do it. Follow Nike. There's a reason why they've made it so big xD
Fortunately, Mom gave me a lil' advice last night: Just go for both and see what they offer.

Some advice beats no advice.

Creme brulee part one:



This is my bro trying to remove a piece of egg shell from the yolk. He's really lousy at cracking eggs.



And here he is trying to remove the air bubbles from the cream mixture. I was smart. I let him do the more impt parts so if it's screwed up, no one can blame me :D

Hahs, well. It was a pretty failed attempt, considering the fact that we didn't have ramekins (I bet they're friggin' exp!)

We traveled over hills and mountains, streams and lakes + oceans but we didn't get a blowtorch. It was 50 bucks, all in at home-fix. I told my bro: Go Chong Pang lah, will have cheaper ones. Hah, Okay & we did. We walked there from the station (He said it's good training for the tw trip, so okaye loh) & spotted one hardware shop. It was the only one selling the blowtorch though. And it was 32 bucks. So we got the Ah pek to try it out, but it wasn't satisfactory ): You kinda had to ignite it manually, which I thought was dangerous. I don't like playing with fire. I really don't (:

Then I felt his love for me!

But it was bad. The torch was faulty or something. So we agreed, after much deliberation to get the more "high class" one at Home-fix. But the Uncle tried it for us, so how?? I was actually a lil' apprehensive........ coz I imagined the uncle screaming at us and demanding that we should pay for the entire thing, so here's wht happened:

Bro: You go outside first, I settle this
Me: *walks out of the shop* I was listening quite intently. I was mega afraid the ah pek may try to do something funny to my bro xD
Bro: *walks out* (I followed silently behind)

In the end, he paid for the butane fuel only. Ok, happy ending I suppose.

FAILED CREME BRULEE.

I feel torn.
Am still feeling it.
But c'mon girl, it's too early to enter panic mode just yet.

I STILL FEEL TORN............ when I consider everything.

tags: Dad, me, JY

But I don't want to go to the dentist again........................

I remember Liki asking me;

L: Do you think girls should dumb themselves in front of guys?
K: Well, to a certain extent yes. Would you?
L: Yes, I think I will... you?
K: I would too, unless it's some jerk, lol.

It stays that way, I guess it'll always be.

I mean, there are just some lines we shouldn't cross. Like the way genders are stereotyped. Sometimes, you'd need those for some kind of order in the community. Those really do help define and assign roles in society.

Okay;
If I don't get it, I'll give up because this was never meant for me.

So let's just wait for the results

& I wish I had a camera with me. There is so much to capture, it's just not the same with words.

What can I say? Yeah, through the rain really creates the 'ideal' mood to blog.
Lol.

Well, at least I can tell myself (proudly) that..

I've tried.
I've fought.
I've been true.
I've been honest to myself.

I'm a good girl ((((:!

*Meet my new friend Nebby! She's from China & I love her very very much, just like how I love them

Woke up at 1118. & my eyes can't open very well today. I'm.. d-e-a-d.

Aihs, well at least now, I know what 'career aspirations' refer too.

Oh I know, maybe because I was running in my dream last night/this morning. The RJ track was ready o_o. Okay, anything could happen in dreams. JY knows this better than anyone else.

Ahh... I shall stop sleeping so late alr. It's not good for the eyes. Gah..... I have another review that I'm supposed to book an appt for. Apparently, it'll have to be 'postponed' till after the trip. I shall ring the centre up when I'm bored & am done with my books x_x

Okay, promise I'll sleep earlier tonight. I really don't think it's healthy when you sleep so late and the second thing you do right after you wake up is to drink coffee.

cross your fingers and pray everything goes well later

yay (:

I've to be an independent girl tomorrow.

Ahh, it's dreadful. Yet, isn't this what I've wanted?

Sooner or later, it'll just be me. Fighting alone. So let's welcome that tmr.
T-o-m-o-r-r-o-w

JIEYINGGGGGG

But if you feel like I feel
Please let me know that it's real

Lauryn Hill — Oh Pretty Baby lyrics (part)

& I thought I saw you force a smile;

A forced smile for another forced one.

Nouns: Distraction, insecurities, just me.

#1. Swissotel was fun xD

#2. I'm outta mints. Crap... I almost hyperventilated earlier haha.

#3. The gals really looked gorgeous tonight. Yeah, I have to admit: So were the guys.

#4. Being too attached to the class would entail greater effort in letting go. Just like how I semi-struggled to let go of 4/1. Being Ban zhang really...

Ok, need to wash up then pack toiletries. Hope no one will be late tmr. So looking forward to the card test thingy! It has been well over a month. Hah, wonder if the "obstacles" would remain the same as the first time I took it.

Love 6N((:

Aaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Yeap so today started bad. Why?

Because of the very fact that my stomach couldn't stop growling for the first half (or maybe o.70) hour of my being awake. Yiks. The part which cranked me up was that I wasn't given food till 11oo. Double yiks.

Well, not to mention my hair/awareness of the state of my hair, which only left me feeling worse. Hah...

Ok, woke up at 6.3oam and headed straight to the market. Bought my roses for a very very low price. Maybe to me, they're cheap. And I asked the uncle if he could help me de-thorn them.. He said no T________T

So I went home & slowly removed the thorns one by one, on all 2o elegant roses. They poked me (while they're inanimate objects, they're alive! So 'poked' could be used right?). No pricks. Just pokes. But my fingers feel rough and sore. Eek. Lucky I'm giving them to the gals. At least they'll keep it for 1 day or more right? Which would mean my effort(s) wouldn't have gone straight to the bin. Hee...

Okay I need to get sleep. Maybe I'll "start" the day again by waking up at 143o. Maybe this way, I won't feel as crapped up knowing I'd get food the moment I wake up xD.

+ Have to prep myself for this evening's torture. Ahh... My panda. Come to mommy xD

xoxo

Time now: Just hung up the phone with miah. SIM's dy's.

I thought I was on the verge of getting over it.

That call sort of just ruined my newfound determination.

Pool really revealed quite a bit; which gave me more reason to let go/give up/whatever

Lol. My infrequent tyco-ness really doesn't make me a good player.

Gosh I detest haircuts. But that's the best hairdresser I can find at such a rate. Well, my hairdresser. Which really makes me not wanna go tmr ): Ah, it always happens. And I try to pull my hair so it grows faster. Shao says blow drying it helps it grow faster o-o Hah, I did try that. And I believe it does. I always look forward to a month after my haircuts. That's when my hair grows to look better/the best. Eeeeeek...

maybe it'll go away

maybe it'll go away soon

maybe it'll not

maybe thinking about it just confuses. Nope, not maybe. It does..

h-m-m

Double k-i-l-l today. Ok, maybe one took place last night.

& I couldn't sleep. Hah, woke up early & finished the brownies.

By finished, I mean finished decorating them. Gosh they're adorable xD

Going out soon! After one round of suicide-bomber-killing

And then, Meeting my most beloved beloved beloved!! I miss them terribly and finally, prom shopping!! You know how that feels? ................

Feels like the B-E-S-T thing that ever happened after monday. Sweet surprise. Ughhhhh I love them so so so!

#2; I finally received the reply from Raffles Hospital. Well, & I kinda realised it's just me going to battle alone. Think it's too late to get JY to join ): Hopefully her NUH application works out though. Aiyah, can one lah xD

Double kill & I'm loving it

I miss you dear blog!! Hah...

It really feels better after spilling everything out.

Well, Ah ma's still coughing. Badly... can't give her anymore chocolates.

Yesterday had no plan(s)
Today have no plan(s)

And yes, I'm still envious!

Hah.. BJ went out with his mum to get a camera (me? going out with mummy on saturday.. It feels like a really long time -saturday seems like it'll never come I mean- .. just like how getting me a camera doesn't seem to materialise)

Darren went out to study with Reg (his gf). She kinda got ''retained'' or so I've heard. Good luck Reg! I mean it. "I'll be here if you need me!! ((:"

Kor..went to the gym I think. He borrowed 2 bucks from his alr broke sis. Nah jk. It seems like something big.. considering how 'often' I talk to him. Hee...

Yes..and Ye Jun went to get his prom stuff. Ah..Maybe I shall ask Mr. Joel how to sustain plants when you're not given tubes of water. Hah.

Aww... tmr's planned (I miss them [IJ] so much!! But I get this feeling that we won't be able to go out tmr.. ). So is friday. What we're lacking is a backup plan for friday. Saturday's planned too. I'll crash prom whee hee hee. Okay, maybe just the reception part x_x Aha...

In any case, ah nvm. Don't wanna think abt it. Let's go kill some suicide bombers.

*Disclaimer to the previous post: No more creme brulee, something unforseen cropped up.

For the better or for the worse? Not up to me to judge.

Well, I love him/them & it's enough(:

Now that I've received some reimbursement/donation/remuneration/compensation (whatever dot dot dot) from my dear dear dear daddy, I feel really bad about being such a pain yesterday. Guess $ issues can really break an emo person. Lol.

Daughter: So when are we going to watch ninja?
Daddy: Saturday I got course.. but afternoon should be ok. Tell Darren.
Daughter: Orh (forgots that it's M18 and lil' bro can't quite watch)
Daddy: Eh, I thought you got prom?
Daughter: Yeah got, but I'm not going.
Daddy: Why??
Daughter: Too expensive
Daddy: I'll pay lah, just go.
Daughter: Too late. Everything settled alr, no more tix.

& I've realised the opp cost of not going for prom is rather high, but the best alternative is still ..er... the best? Hah. 8o bucks can...

1) Bring Ah ma out for dim sum
2) Buy new clothes xD
3) Can go Jurong eat the mega fish
.
.
.
Can do a lot of things.

Ok, now I feel better xD

I hope we get to make creme brulee like later or tmr. (Elder) Bro's gonna (ATTEMPT TO) make it for his gf/gal he likes. I think they've gone stead but I'm not sure. Sorry but I saw their neoprints *envious* I wanna take neoprints too ): It's been 2 months. I miss my girlfriends )): Well, I guess being in different schs may not be that bad afterall. At least you'd cherish more of the moments spent with them.

(I still find that I think fragmented-ly)

**I'll (try to) swim my way out of this.

Ok, now this shall go on hiatus.
Bye dear blog, again (yes again).