Emotionally drained.

Mentally taxing.

Physically exhausted.

All apparent symptoms of being unable to achieve something you desire.

In this case, the song.

Sad huh?

Yeah, you bet.

SP somewhere within the months.

You know, I always tell myself, if you cared, you would have taken the initiative to actually find all those SPs hidden in this blog. But it was never really realised.

And dreams shall remain virtual. They never will happen in reality.

If you understand. If you had been attentive. You'll realise it for me.

Only then will I believe: Dreams do come true.

I shan't deny the absence of that tiny bit of. jealousy sometimes. =X

Lols. Funny NTUC guy in the bus earlier. Is he kaypoh or plain concerned? Of did he just want to be a Mr Nice guy [MNG] ? Ha. Anyway, it was thoughtful of him either way.

*taps me on the shoulder*

MNG: Eh... your bag wet already.
Me: Owh. Ha.. It's ok. Thank you.

*thinks: Ha.. My bag is water resistant dude. Lols. Thx anyway.*

how screwed.

many turns on the screw and it's not screwed in yet. Half way or maybe not even there.

domino effect. it's taking a turn for the worst. i know. only the person screwing it in gets to decide.

it's difficult to do it alone. support. from friends aint enough. but i still appreciate it. thx van. thx bella. <33333

tears just get dried and down into the bin with the tissue. Ha. must have freaked bella out with the tears.

only myself to blame. for not reading the damned paper carefully. in a hurry? or plainly distracted? or.. plain stupid? the 1st and 3rd options work for me.

NVM.

WHAT IS SUCCESS WITHOUT FAILURE? NOT HAVING TASTED THE BITTERNESS OF FAILURE WILL NEVER BRING YOU THE JOY OF SUCCESS. STRIVE ON GIRL!

ok.

Nothing really matters now eh?

The answer is of utmost unimportance.

A new hole has been created.
Waiting to be mended.

Seriously, If you care too much, the deeper will the wound be. How ironic. Sure.
This is just one of the darker moments.

I thought through last night. Thinking of whether I should fake it.
But.. It all depends on the circumstances.
And I did say.
Wanted to see if you'd defend your friend and misplace the trust I had in you.
Well well.. Things didn't really go the way I had planned.
Of course. If they did, my parents would have won toto.

I know I had pissed you off. I'm sorry. I just had to know. But knowing more will leave
a greater gash.
Ignorance is bliss.

I never knew the trust you people had in me was that fragile. How upsetting. HAHA.

I looked forward to today. 28o7o7. But it turned out to be a half-nightmare. Gosh.. Now the inferiority complex sets in on me again. I wonder when was the last I truly seriously thought I was freakin'.. ugly. Gosh. I even fear having to speak that word. My whole world .. okaye. Perhaps 99%. Came crashing down on me. I was literally black today. Damn I suck.

Fortunately Anh's pics came. Thx gurl. <33

How I wish you could be right by my side this moment..

Wishful thinking.