Why does such a happy day have to end up so miserable?
God doesn't like kristyn to be happy till the end.
He brought her up to the 18th floor and made her fall.
She fell, sank deep.
Went beneath the ground.
It was hard, concrete. Slammed.
She's incoherent now.
That wave of misery and undue guilt had slapped her real hard.
(不知者无罪) doesn't work for her.
What's done has been condemned. Denigrated. Vilified.
Coming home and being slapped with (don't you go out anymore) didn't help. Not at all.
But does she care? No.. not really.
Coz she doesn't wanna go for class outings no more. Though she's aware her classmates love her.
She's ashamed. Utterly.
Ashamed of being unaware, of being too insensitive. Just for that minute.
Where was her observant being at that time?
It was in that machine.
That machine - a curse.

Luckily I have bella to rant at. To just get it off my chest. Even if it means for a while. I love you bellaaa. Thank you. Very much.

快乐可以和你分享。痛苦由自己承受就足够。
No, i'm not gonna share it. Not with you.. Once again. I'm sorry for being so selfish. Even though friends are supposed to be there for one another. Good and bad times. The latter just doens't work for me.
If only (sorry) would help.
It doesn.t