Personalised kb eh? Hmms.

HEH! I woke up at 1o.49 today. And indeed. I looked at the amt of sunlight coming in and thought to myself; It's 11. >_> And true enough, I was close! I had a dream. Not a nightmare. When I woke up, bro was gone. Younger bro was still in bed. My dreams do have a start and an end. I was in Genting! On the same roller coaster ride I dreamt of before. It was amazing! Although physically, it cannot be found there. But yeah. Maybe it's a ride I would really like to try somewhere on earth. I met yeeyee and Vic. Didn't see Bryan though. As usual. On a boat.. To somewhere. With many many glass bottles. Then, I was awaken by Mummy I think after the roller coaster ride. I wonder if I had screamed. In reality. LOL.

Then. I went back to sleep. I dreamt of Daddy and I queueing up at NTUC. Or some place resembling that supermarket. Hellols. We kept jumping cashier but the ladies there were like social workers. And told us to return to the original queue. >_> So, we went back to our first or second queue. And we got our stuff. And tht's the end of all my dreams.

Somewhere in between my dreams, .. Another pleasant surprise. Which turned out to be harsh when in reality, it never happened.
I never wanted this silence between us.
It's the unpredictable kind of silence.
It's torture.

I should have told you I'm nothing good. Right from the beginning.
Bad luck with me? Or should I use jinx?
My intentions were vague perhaps. But I thought you'd know. To an extent.
I don't know what your thoughts are. Just rest well if you don't wanna think anymore. Do whatever makes you feel better. I'm just that literal. Or maybe superficial.

So.. Have I finally done something correctly as a daughter?
Maybe the awful stress due to the old folks and perhaps work?
You think with your heart. Not your brain. The brain is just a follower. 想; think. The xin at the bottom is evidence.

Reason it out. Damned life.
Theveryfirsttimeyouhungup.

Great. Now I'm sort of left alone at home. When both bros get to go out. I'm stuck with the internet.

Don't feel obliged eh? Hmm.. Maybe I felt obliged in the past. Maybe I still do now. And I know, obligation is not something to be felt in any half broken relationship. Be it with friends or family. If it breaks, it just does. You can't glue it back. You can't mend it. Even if you do, like how you use the best brand of superglue to repair a shattered vase etc, there will still be a flaw. Nothing comparable to a brand new one. Maybe that's how relationship works. Like after some HUGE incident, you and your mum can't possibly communicate as worry-free as before.

What if I decide to break it again? Hellols. Without feeling a tinge of guilt and regret. Not possible. So is that considered obligation? I don't know. All I know is that.. I need to decide. Quick.

If a fullstop ends a sentence.
What then, has the power to end life?
Hellols.
Gd qn.
A decision.