And yes. I've been waiting for that one msg which will brighten up my day.
It never came.
Reason; me.
I never once gave up although I had tried to.
You have done a lot for me.
Now it's my turn.

Now I am at a loss for words. And I had everything thought out. The music just took away my thoughts for a second.
Hmm...
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Do you really honestly seriously know my decision?
I know I was kinda harsh yesterday.
But that was the only way to get the msg across laughing.
And apparently, the msg was wrong.
But if you cared, you would have found your way here long ago.
So should I break it to you?
Or let you find your way here?
I'll see.

Yes. I really don't get it.

Get what?
Maybe now it's my turn to try to let go. This ignoring thing can really kill me. Hahs..
Or perhaps..I should tell myself this; Maybe this is better for you. It should be. The extinction of me can really save many from heartaches and bad luck. Death. It solves all problems. But I doubt it'll bring away your sorrow. Wanna try?

I know this is purely my fault.
Nothing is ever right when I'm around.
I am to blame for all that has occurred.
Hahs.. I'm an awful person to be with.
No matter how I reproach myself, nothing will change.
What's done cannot be undone. But.. I'm still puzzled over what has really been done. Lols.
The fact that now is the absolute wrong time.
The others still stay. If we both allow it to. Or have I made you lose faith in this r/s? If that's the case. Good for you. You're free from the jinx! Grats.

Is this all real?
About true love lasting forever?
It seems fake.
Or is it the fact that people are moving on?
Once, you claimed you love so-and-so. It wasn't just one. Was it? There were.. a few.
You said you'll love so-and-so forever. No matter where so-and-so went.
Even death won't affect this love of yours.
And you repeated it. The whole process.
Just that, the so-and-so now is an entirely different person.
Unique you say. Different. Just so different.
If you had said you'll love so-and-so no matter where so-and-so went before, then why did you change?
Your heart.
Shouldn't it stay?
So does it mean that, .. If I had blew it again...
Like how the previous so-and-so blew it, you can easily move on?
Like before? Like you once did?
I don't know if people will still think of their previous partners when they face a new so-and-so.
I'm new to this whole thing.
I'm still trying to figure everything out.

Option#1; Live in confusion.
Option#2; Stop thinking about this. It has nothing to do with you.
Option#3; Ask the experts.
Option#4; Laugh it off. HAHA. -_-

I'll take option#5. Coz there aint one. I'm not going to choose again.