It was never one-sided.
Maybe still isn't.

Time will wear it off.
Or maybe not.

Wait and feel.

Fade?
No idea.

Uncertain, doubts.

Letting go is inevitable.
Is letting go the same as ending it?
It looks different to me.

I never once mentioned separation.

Perspective. Then react.
The outcome I wished for?
I don't know.

I asked Pook today if she got sick of Bella.
She said yes.
Bella retaliated with a yes as well.
Is this how it's meant to be?
I'm not sure.

I'm incapable of sustaining a promise.
I daren't even promise.
Was it void?
Not completely.
It was mostly filled.
But, as long as it isn't 100%, I won't be satisfied.
If I'm not contented, how would others be?

I have to convince myself before I can convince others.

And this will take time.
I don't wanna be tied down by a promise or a special relationship.
Not now.
There are many restraints I have to set.
For myself to abide by.
These may be harsh.
If I can't live up to them, I can't face anyone.

This is the last straw.
Final.
Being abhorred?
Yeah. Feels like this is the case.
To be disliked is fine.
To know that I'm being disliked.
Not fine.
Lol.
Life can't be a straight line.
You'll be missing out on the good stuff, which would be cleverly incorporated into the bad.
Cheers.
I need enlightenment.
I'm gonna find it.
Alone.

感情麻木了，是否不用再受心理上的折磨？
是的。
你也能除掉你所渴望的自由感。
因为失去了感情就等于失去了快乐。
不过，也代表失去了痛苦。
这样的牺牲违背了我对自己人生所列出的原则。
苦与乐。欢与悲。
黑和白。
成双成对。
心灵已失去了方向。
但。。
以后再继续吧。

Tht's because your neck's aching or you're busy.
You can't expect me to continue interrupting whatever you're doing right?
Bye doesn't really mean anything significant to me.
It's just something to say to end a conversation.
Like when you say hello to start one.
Maybe it means something to you.
If it does, I'd rather not say hello.
No start, no need for an end.
To be labelled annoying/irritating, I can't take it.
Back to drowning myself in books till 1opm so I won't get a chance to call or sms.
Fewer sms-es = Less irritating.
No calls = Not irritating.
I can only come up with this method coz I don't intend to hide my flaws in front of someone I can trust.

Utterly tired.
Exhausted [mentally & physically drained]

I wanna sleep my way through tmr.

I'm shutting my mind down for a while.

I need the comfort of my own lil' world again.
BYE!