It was supposed to be a happy day, wasn't it?
Going out with the og.. though i didn't expect many pple to turn up. except the same few people.
Well, things are changing, for sure.
More couples, more deaths.
Distressing.
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New friends, old friends!?!?
i don't know anymore. that distinction... how do you define old friends? is there even such a person who's an old friend to you?
i pondered over that, but gave up.
aha..
yes and i'm jealous.
Jealous of the rp people. they have little 'old' friends. coz all their friends are still with them. like 99.9%?! whereas for us, even close friends in the same college now are becoming more distant. and not so close friends are becoming closer.
Yes, we make new friends. To the extent we forget our old ones? Damn i tell you.
It really needs constant contact and communication to keep any r/s going. or else, another death.
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sometimes, don't you feel that whatever comes up of your mouth is becoming increasingly fake? even when they're nothing but the truth? like you're repeating the same whole story over and over again such that they seem like.. plain lies.
how scary.
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I don't know which is it.
Family? Friends? Og? Class? CTs? Or just me.

I need a good bath.
To perk myself up for entropy.

Things are gonna be so different when the break's over.
Let's wait and see.

It was enlightening.
Yes. Maybe some people just like to be alone.
They've tried enough; to be who others want them to be.
But if you don't accept yourself, how do you expect others to accept you for who you are?
They may seem to be anti-social, self-centered and just another loner.
Maybe..
I should acknowledge that nothing's really wrong with him.
I should ought to stop what I've been thinking, abt him. All the negative stuff x_x
When really, it's just his nature.

我无需认同但需理解. Shao's words of wisdom.

Hah. That wasn't really my purpose of blogging now.
But I just can't seem to rmb the unhappiness?
Ah wells.
Right, the convo brought me back here.

And now, tada!!

Maybe it's not wrong anynore. It never was right. Neither should it be vilified by our morals, if we have any. I don't have to accept what they're thinking and feeling. I'd just have to understand that.. at the end of the day, what matters the most is that they're happy. Afterall, different people have different OB markers. I'm glad that she's happy doing what she's doing. Even if I still think it isn't very correct.. Maybe time will change all that.

As for me, I'm still trying hard to deny instead of escaping. Are they the same?
Maybe it isn't denial, it's what my heart speaks. It's the truth!!
So well, I shouldn't be bothered by me thinking what I think is true, when actually, it's nothing but an invisible wall. No.. no wall dude. Just nothing. NOTHING. Get it?

Ya know, sometimes, the more you think about something that doesn't exist, something that just aint there, the more it starts to form and just begin to appear like it exists, when actually it doesn't. understand? Hah.

Taz and great night.

have you realised, people seem to be dying in 2oo8.

Maybe chelNg's right.
The Dinos died perhaps coz they were just too lazy to multiply.

Well well.
Am I like a very naggy/lousy sis? Hah. I wonder.
I keep nagging my bro to mug. like..err. GO MUG AND STOP PLAYING THAT CHILDISH GAME. -_-
And he never does listen. We've tried talking some sense into him.
I told him, as long as you start mugging now, you sure can get in JC.
He wants to get into college. He believes he can and he will.
I think otherwise. And I said if he can get into JC, i'll give him a hundred bucks. As for which currency, let's not disclose it yet.
I told him to mug. Like how I do.
Then he replied: I also not going to RJ.
That's very true. And how proud would a sis be when her younger bro could study in the same sch as she does.
Maybe I'm too..uhh.. forceful towards him.

I really don't know what I know and don't.