But if it's our destiny to die today, no matter what we do, we won't be able to change it.
Like for some people, unknowingly develop cancer.
they're kind yet such things have to happen to them.
it's not something they can change.
But of course, they can fight for a chance to survive.
provided if it's the early stage.
if it's a late stage, only God can save them I guess.

Sometimes, when we fight very hard for certain things, we end up not having them.
but at other times, without a single fight, some things just end up being ours.
Like when I take the bus.
I tend to like..rush to the bus stop every day after sch.
But slowly I tell myself.
If the bus comes, even if i walk like a snail, i would still be able to catch it.
If I'm destined to miss the bus, no matter how fast I walk or even run, I won't be able to catch it.

No doubt, certain things are within our control.
But our decisions are limited eh..
Bound by many restrictions. Family, etc etc.

Aihs.
The reason for those many ''break ups'' is actually partly due to me afraid of myself changing heart.
It's like, you're darn nice. Then.. Isn't it better to break now? Than to wait for me to change heart and then tell you I like someone else?
I think tht's damn cruel.

But I'm still not sure how strong my heart will be.
I can never control my feelings. I doubt anyone can.
Of course, the above may never happen.
But, I don't wanna take any risks.
I think it would be more painful if that were to occur.

Yeah. So..YOU'D BETTER GROW FATTER AND START PLANNING FOR THE FUTURE TURE TURE TURE. =x Lols. I need a stable future. A sense of security.
You can't give me tht.
YET.
Maybe when you're botak. =x