I'm no longer that girl who yearns for a bgr anymore. I was.
Not now.
I tried to understand what love is. I couldn't.
It's sophisticated. The kind b/w guys and girls.
I don't wanna experience this now. It's too early.
I wanted to..But tht was 6 months ago.
I like you.
I love you as a friend.
But.. I cannot say I love you as a guy.
It's not coming from the depths of my heart.
It's meaningless.
I'm not there yet.
I don't have the ability to love other people besides my family and friends.
Not now definitely.
In the future or maybe never.

From like to love..there are like ten bus stops.
I'm not even half way there yet.
Maybe at the 3rd one.
Last time, I used to be.
Because my perception of love was ignorant and maybe a little xiao mei mei-ish.
Let nature take its course.
I'm really unable to say ily anymore. Unless I really mean it.
It's so freaking unfair to you.
Not my style.
I don't wanna continue giving you hope, and then be unable to 100% sustain it.
Because I don't wanna be treated the same way.
I dont like empty promises.

But I've tried.