Ignorance can be educated.
Drunkenness can be sobered.
Stupidity lasts forever.

How true. It really does. I rmb making the same mistake vaguely. I didn't link the Qn tightly. Didn't link part (b) to (a). How ridiculous. Indeed, stupidity will follow me with life. Until I'm able to manipulate it or something.

What a joke.

Experiencing these:
[was really worse than hell]
Ha. All my friends got an A1. Well, almost all in my clique I suppose. 16 distinctions and I wasn't one of them.
Seeing them cheer and smile, I was happy for them. Sure I was.
Just the opposite for myself.
Almost everyone around you laughing and heaving sighs of relief.
Me?
Heavily dejected.
Sat there, counted my marks. Really felt like giving up. And I did. [for a while maybe]
Like every bad day, the tears spilled out so quickly.
Oh. But I managed to suppress them. Came up. Went back. Came back up, went back down.
It was difficult.
How many times did I tell myself not to cry today?
Eventually, I let it all out.
In a secret place. [aiseh, so obvious >_>]
Bella and Amanda were so worried. Ha. Glad they got what they deserved.
I deserved my pathetic B.
I didn't study very hard, did I?
Only for the first 3 days of the hols.
The 3 days before this paper, I only cared about memorising essays.
Was it a wrong focus? I bet so.
If Bella hadn't comfort me with a pat on the head, I wouldn't have cried.
I'm too sensitive, in particular, easily touched when people show such concern.
How useless.
Ha. Long post. Bear with it. You can leave though.
Ha..
What on earth went wrong?
I don't know.
Failed prac.
Didn't do well for MCQ.
Section A was a disaster.
Only my essay pulled my grades up. [It didn't do the same for me]
Well. At least I improved by one grade from mid-yrs.
That's the only consolation.
Mr Tang was like so fearful for me.
Asked me how I did for the other subjects.
How comforting. For a teacher.
Still, I didn't meet anybody's expectations for bio this time.
Now left side of the mouth is angry. Right side's fine.
Or rather, left side of my head's aching too. How weird.
Ha... Wanna ache, whole head ache loh.
Anyway, I'm fine after all those chocolates. Not very satisfying but I needed them.
Tears calmed me down as usual.
They're my best friends now.

What can I possibly do to improve now? I don't know.
I really need the advice.
Someone, anyone to tell me to get back on my feet.
To tell me where to focus.
To motivate me to study the usual 9hrs/day.
To give me more assessment on Bio and tell me my weak points.
To teach me more Bio stuff.
To correct the incorrect concepts.
Someone pls!
Or I'll be a gone case...

I'm tired.. I don't wish to continue all this crap.
Crap which I don't know how and where to improve on.
Crap which only makes me wanna give up.
Crap which deters me from studying and believing I'm really retarded.
Crap which seals my fate - No matter how hard I try, it's still a B.

I don't want all this!!

But what can I do..?