Well well...
I was high for a few short periods today.
When I experienced brain-freeze in Mummy's office.
When I was singing in the toilet; "I FEEL GOOD.. DADADADADA"
Irrelevant Yes.
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Darker moments too.
Carrefour was darn crowded. I don't like these kinda places.
They put me off.
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Am I really that lousy?
Failing not only my own expectations but others' as well?
2 English prelim papers from other sch's are mocking me. 3 more to do likewise.
Read between the lines. They say : YOU SUCK!!
Yes I know. Thx for the reminder.
I need encouragement from my tutor.
I'm badly demoralized now.
I'm now more inclined to believing I'll get 8 pts minimum for Os. Humanities 2, Eng 2.
If I'm lucky that is.
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Am I really not giving enough?
I thought I did.
I felt I initiated a lot.
My calls seemed to be the norm.
My mood won't change because of the Os. That's definite.
It'll only change because of what others speak or don't speak.
What others act or don't act.
Words never not have an impact on me.
In fact, they affect me quite a bit.
Constructive criticism in a subtle manner is healthy. No doubt about that.
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Your words can really bring me down sometimes.
How I'd wish you would call yesterday.
You didn't.
I know my expectations and demands are unreasonable.
So forget it.
Maybe it's better this way.
Only reason I can think of: You don't wanna hear my voice.
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I really can't afford to lose focus now.
My bio's still on the sharp end of a knife.
My Eng is down the cliff.
I'm sick of this life now.
I'll dread the life after Os more.
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My principle: Study hard and at the same time, relax. Studying full time then relaxing full time would only cause you to miss the good things in life which pass you by every day. Remember; Time won't turn back.
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I'll live by that.