Oh god oh god..
I screwed my interview yesterday and today, screwed my trials.
HAHA.
means i'm fated to be devoted to med society.
blah..but it won't look very good on my testimonial right..
grr.
wanna join another cca but..
sighs..
cybergamin's out.
photo soc. maybe.
grahh..
X_X
tired as usual.
played captain's ball today.
the opponents were outnumbered.
blah. win also bu shuang.
-_- going to ecp tmr with my dear OG! =D
aihs..
the past few days..just when i was trying to settle down.
new environment.
after the wake and everything. tuning back to the right freq aint as easy as i thought it was.
and you had to make everything more difficult. ):
harping on the same thing..for like..the past 3-4 days or so.
it makes me feel damn sian.
later you piss me off then you know.
as in..literally off..away.
to someone else.
LOL. lala.
eyes hurt..morning, night.
so stupid to be like..xxxing for crap loh. like just..over stupid stuff.
oh god oh god.. i've said wht i wanted to say yesterday.
blah.
degrading.. if it weren't for words other pple say, i won't even speak bad things abt myself. i love myself a lot ok. but i love others more. <3
criticism... not everyone can take it easy. esp from someone so dear.
i've tried and tried and it's like..you're telling me i have to be really perfect.
have to get it right. fully correct.
it makes me more sian and tired.
from the way you scold me to the way you're nagging me to do this do that.
it just says a big BE PERFECT right into my damn face.
change.
who doesn't change?
if you don't.. i feel sorry man. carrying the same old personality, habits, attitude for ur whole darn life?
tht's like really sad.
exposure to pple makes me change.
maturity. and at the same time being young at heart after aging.
everything changes and the only thing which doesn't = change itself.
my saying nonsense . to you = crap. To me = seriousness.
when i'm pissed/angry/upset, i say all those.
when i'm sick of your words, i say more of them.
when i cannot tolerate;
when i want you to be happy.

i seriously don't see how being with me, scolding me, getting pissed with me make you happy or wht.

ah wells.
tht's all.