Dinner was cold coz I had to rush my report. I was eating to live. Anyway, I'm trying my best to forget. Maybe everything will be back to normal soon, at least by this sat. The past weekend was the worst. I'm not talking sense. It's jumbled. Just let everything in my head flow through and be expressed.

It takes a few hundred thousand men to build the Great wall, many of whom have died.
But it only takes a mother to build a happy family.

Keep this in my head. Please ring inside this crapped up brain of mine so my thoughts won't flow that far. It's going.. But let me at least, put an end to all these.

How I wish I can tell my mum..

Mummy, I've done the most I could. What you wanted.. I gave up for your sake. I didn't betray your trust or whatever. But the feeling can't be gotten rid of. It's internal. And you can't see it. Maybe you'll be able to feel it, since you're my mum afterall. You trusted me, I did what I could for mummy's sake. You told me to. But now, I trusted and respected you; What you wanted. But I don't feel the respect you're supposed to give me.. as a human being. I'm your daughter dude. Okaye fine.

I NOW DECLARE: IT'S OVER. BLAH LA LA.

Wake up call today from my Eng teacher. Got back my e-math paper which was 4 days before schedule. God. Lucky for me, I survived that. Waha. Yes. And I admit I've not done enough for my English. I want it so badly, yet I'm not doing much. I AM doing something, just not enough. She's right. 4/1 this year is the worst 4/1 she has ever taught. Attitude problem. I got freaked out. I asked her if my character was bad. I was so freaking worried. But phews, she told me I'm ok, I'm good. I was glad. I'm gonna push myself harder. *BRING ME THE PAPERS!!*

Oh.. Lastly..
People should not be relying on beauty for self-worth and confidence because beauty fades. It comes from the inside. (:

I LOVE MY MUMMY. =D